So this is what the weeks have started looking like: sleeping in on Sundays til
about, oh, let’s say 4:20, hang out for awhile, Drew tapes Deadwood so we can
watch it on Monday. I’ve started getting up at 7:30 in the weekday mornings,
packing boxes till my eyes are full, trying to run some files off to the
printers (custom crap I swore I’d never do again), and then to dinner with the
‘rents (since I’m broke and they always pay), and then to hang out with Drew at
night. It’s dull to blog, you see. Last Saturday we went to a YardDogs game
(arena football), got a sweet Suite, had a couple margaritas. The suites are
awesome–mini fridge, sink, sofa, and the sliding window things to the seats. I
practiced looking like a movie star and wore my pink Kate Spade J-lo-ish glasses
inside until we got to the Suite. I wore makeup for the first time in, probably,
well, um, since the last time I was at the Wormy Dog. I’m trying to get better
about the makeup thing. Drew had to get a root canal, and is on some major
antibiotic stuff, and can’t even have a beer while he’s on it. So, for two
weeks, it was almost complete focus on what he was going through, and now it’s
just wading through everything until Saturday when he can drink again. It’s
going to warrant a celebration of great extents. However, we have to be at
church by 8:30 on Sunday morning because it’s Mothers Day and that’s what my
mother wants. I ordered a pair of pink J Crew flats for New York today. I’m
trying to coordinate outfits with the booth. So I’m sorry it’s all about work,
but I’m just trying to get my tail out of debt so I can finish my house and have
a party and buy everyone a round. I do realize I’ve become a bit of a hermit of
late. I haven’t run into anyone lately, which means I haven’t been bar hopping
as much, which could be good (less drunk) or could be bad (less friends). You’ll
all be happy to know I’m living vicariously through Ash’s blog. March was my
best month ever, sales-wise, until April, and then the sales doubled what I did
in March. My dream of writing checks to pay off my credit cards is slowly
becoming a reality, and that is very motivating. I’m hoping May tops even April,
and that June and July even out somewhere around there. Really, I just have to
make it to about August, because business will really slow down around then,
except for reorders, and I’ll probably have a chance to catch up on a little
socializing, a little house remodeling, and a little, much-needed, shopping.

Who knew it would take a full five days until I could blog again? And that’s
pretty sad, too, because the past two days have been slow, as far as my days go.
There is still a ton to be done before New York; I’ve already started packing so
that I can be on top of things, and I’m forcing myself to accomplish one major
task a day, instead of procrastinating. I have a feeling everything will be so
surreal when I get there; like the first time you anticipated summer camp. You
had no idea what the place would look like, you just hope you enjoyed it. Today
the printer is supposed to deliver my reprints, and hopefully get the boxes that
have multiplied like bunny rabbits out of my office.

I’m off to get starbucks, then run downtown for a half second, and then back to
the office. More orders came in over the weekend; Lindsey comes this afternoon.
We are waiting on a reprint run to come in; I have to get the multiplying boxes
off my office floor so that I can take inventory. There are many things to do,
but the highest priority is for me to be prepared for New York. No
procrastinating, preparedness. So far, I have booth walls. It’s a good start.
But after I get chairs, a tableskirt, flooring, possibly lights, decent signage,
and ship it all, tomorrow–I have to work on designing a new line. I think fear
is what makes me procrastinate, and I wonder how to conquer it. Look it straight
in the face and defy it, or cautiously dance around the face-off and slip in,
unoticed, at the last minute? I haven’t found any problems with the latter
method, other than the stress build up caused by it.